You may have seen the long row of posts over the past
couple of days.. well I have given up sleeping (again)
due to a sudden relapse of my daughter's asthma..
Actually it isn't a relapse because it is there all the
time, but since a few days it is bad - really bad!
She was extremely sick last year and there were many
sleepless nights, extreme amounts of worry and several
visits to the hospital including a week long stay. Her
last bad episode was on the weekend before we flew
off to Sweden.. She had 'choking episodes' and we rushed
her to hospital in an ambulance.. The doctors encouraged
us to get out of heavy and humid Sydney and it turned
out to be the best advice ever. Not once during our two
month stay in Sweden did Isabella need any Ventolin, she
was healthy, happy and full of energy and confidence. Now,
just three weeks after having returned, the dreaded wheezing
has begun and I am rigid with fear that things are declining.
I want to curl up on the bed in this room, with my mum
sitting on the chair by the fire place telling me that
everything will be ok and that Isabella will be just fine.
Sweden feels very far away right now and Skype is not
really ideal when you need a motherly reassurance hug..
Please spare a thought for my baby.